Me... please comment
Posted: Thu Sep 23, 2010 5:59 pm
I guess that it might be a good idea to introduce myself on here and say a bit about why I joined the forums.
I cry all the time (yet I also have moments of hysterical laughter which worries me rather than comforts me).
I feel alone, all the time. Despite being close to my family and still living at home. I feel like they can't understand and more than that I worry that by telling them how I feel and the continuousness (that a word?) of feeling like this will not help them either.
My Mum has enough on her plate with the things going on in the whole family and I don't want to be another thing for her to worry about. She thinks I'm better at the moment, but I can hide my feelings quite well when I want to. My Dad gets uncomfortable around feelings and although he tries, it makes me feel worse to talk to him about things.
I have to go back to University next week, and I don't want to. It's 3rd year, full of dissertations and stress. But I have to go, theres no point in having wasted so much money not to finish it. Becuase of the emotional state I'm in, I really don't know how long I can cope without a breakdown.
The only person I can talk to or want to talk to is my boyfriend who is in University 200miles away from me. We fought a lot over the summer, which has resulted in this plan of "talking less and seeing eachother less". I don't know whether this is going to help or not, he feels it is doing (he's been back 2weeks already) but I feel a lot worse, because now I'm even more alone than before. I need him, and I know that he can't handle the preassure of that, but I feel like he doesn't care.
If anyone could say anything, ask me anything, take some of this out of my head and help me to sort it out I would be so grateful you wouldn't believe! Don't want to back to the docs and be prescribed anti-depressants again if I can find another way.
Please
I cry all the time (yet I also have moments of hysterical laughter which worries me rather than comforts me).
I feel alone, all the time. Despite being close to my family and still living at home. I feel like they can't understand and more than that I worry that by telling them how I feel and the continuousness (that a word?) of feeling like this will not help them either.
My Mum has enough on her plate with the things going on in the whole family and I don't want to be another thing for her to worry about. She thinks I'm better at the moment, but I can hide my feelings quite well when I want to. My Dad gets uncomfortable around feelings and although he tries, it makes me feel worse to talk to him about things.
I have to go back to University next week, and I don't want to. It's 3rd year, full of dissertations and stress. But I have to go, theres no point in having wasted so much money not to finish it. Becuase of the emotional state I'm in, I really don't know how long I can cope without a breakdown.
The only person I can talk to or want to talk to is my boyfriend who is in University 200miles away from me. We fought a lot over the summer, which has resulted in this plan of "talking less and seeing eachother less". I don't know whether this is going to help or not, he feels it is doing (he's been back 2weeks already) but I feel a lot worse, because now I'm even more alone than before. I need him, and I know that he can't handle the preassure of that, but I feel like he doesn't care.
If anyone could say anything, ask me anything, take some of this out of my head and help me to sort it out I would be so grateful you wouldn't believe! Don't want to back to the docs and be prescribed anti-depressants again if I can find another way.
Please