Depression Understood Forums

Hello all,
I will try not to spill my guts but basically, my depression and OCD started when I was about 10. I had small symptoms for many years but I just thought that I was different or weird. At 27 I got pregnant and shortly after I my baby I went overboard with emotions and 17 years of depression that was hiding came roaring out. I started seeing a therapist and they put me on drugs and for the first few months things were great and then I woke up one day feeling like the sky had fallen and ever since then I cant get the normal feeling back again.

I am on to my second therapist because I had a falling out with my first and I'm on my 3rd drug which still isn't doing a lot. Its like I am stuck in a shell. The real me has ambitions, fun, stress free and is a great person but I cant get out. I am stuck being this depressed person. I don't want to be this person anymore but its not as easy as just saying it and doing it. Its like the real me is just fingertips out of reach and I cant move forward just a little bit more. Everyday I just want to crawl into a hole and sleep forever just so the thoughts can stop. I'm so tired but I just cant catch up on the sleep I need. I plug along everyday for my bf and my son. If it wasn't for them I think I would have thrown in the towel by now.

Its nice to find a place where other people know what I talking about. I hope there is a light at the end of the long tunnel for all of us.

I hope that your symptoms become bearable soon i wrote more but it got deleted and im in a real bad state right now so i can not remember sorry.
Remember your illness does not define who you are it is something life has unfortunately thrown at any one of us and we have to learn to cope it does not have to consume who you are try not to let it please.

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