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I think deep down I suffer with depression.. I have the best family in the world, a loving boyfriend, and am a great student. I just feel alone constantly, and i am sad all the time. I sometimes wish my boyfriend left so it would confirm the horrible alone feelings i have. My mind i constantly thinking about random thoughts. Like what would happen if my mom or grandma pass away? The thought absoultly breaks my heart and terrifies me. I have no friends of my own it feels like anymore, the only one who i considered my best friend could care less about me now. I have no one to talk to anymore. I hate myself...and i feel like i lost me a long time ago..

((((((((((((( Nede888 )))))))))))))))))

Hi, welcome to the forums. You have lots of people here to listen to you, so vent away. What it is all about. We all have those feelings, depression, alone, and it isn't a fun thing to go through.

Have you talk to your parents or boyfriend about your feelings? Just wondering.

Oh yes, there is also a chat room connected with this forum if you want immediate conversation with others, give it a try if you want.

Warmie

when i got back from iraq everything that made me the man i was left me and it will never come back no matter what i do that person is lost ive come to realize that what i need to do is create a new me and fill it with the things that make me happy im not able to feel that emotion yet but its a long process.
What im trying to say is maybe you need to create a new you that you wont hate forget that old you and start from scratch its a long process but you can do it. Good luck Nede888 i hope this helps even a little.