I've been completely abandoned

[JonsDragonEyes]

The only thing I know what to say is don't ever give up on life. Hold on as long as you can. I know life can be hell sometimes but it can be good too. And someday when everything in your life is better.... and I know it WILL get better for you your brother will just be a distant memory. People like him only bring you down. One day you'll be so happy nothing he ever does will get to you. You'll show him how strong and beautiful you are and that you won't ever need him again.


You'll see. Please hang in there. I really do believe in you.

[porcupine]

I still haven't heard anything. I find I'm not feeling as tired as I did. I don't know whether it's adrenalin, because of the stress or it's because being around my brother was so draining.

I don't want him in my life. He really is vile. I have to wait and see now what else he's going to inflict on me.

[JonsDragonEyes]

I hope that he doesn't upset you anymore. I'm really sorry about everything you've had to go through. At least you know you can always come here and talk to us about it.

love and hugs always

[porcupine]

Thanks, and your cat looks like Barbra Streissand. How old is he/she?

[porcupine]

It's been nearly two weeks. I know he's still around because I would have heard from his work by now, if he wasn't. In a way, I hope I do die and rot in the house. Then his halo might slip. I've lost 3 1/2 stone or 49 Ibs and hardly anyone has noticed. My brother has lost a few pounds and people have commented on it.

He was reveling in the fact that people had noticed it. He hadn't noticed my weight loss. It's all about him. He went missing a while ago, and we were all running round after him. Everyone searching. Turned out he had gone on a little holiday and not bothered to tell anyone. His selfishness knows no limits.

Probably if I was dead and rotting, nobody would notice. I'm so tired of people around here. They won't help without ulterior motives. What good is that? Aren't there any genuine, decent people around here? They're like monsters. They just kick me when I'm down or prey on me.

Recently, I felt ill. All my brother could talk or think about was his new girlfriend. Mind you, she has got a nice house in the town. He hadn't heard from her for a few days, and he was worried. He's left the animals and me here for 2 weeks and not given a shit. Perhaps, he would behave the same towards her, if she hadn't got her cosy house in the town, near to the pubs. I see his true colours now. His actions don't match his words.

[JonsDragonEyes]

It's hard but sometimes you have to pretty much wash your hands entirely of people who are always letting you down. At first it's probably one of the hardest things you can ever do but gradually it does get easier.

Don't ever let anyone that upsets and hurts you so much have so much hold and control over your happiness and well being, You deserve better than that. Much better.

[JonsDragonEyes]

Oh and that picture is of Casper. I sure wish I knew how old he is. No clue though.

[porcupine]

Thank you for your reply. Casper looks sweet. How is he and how are you?

[porcupine]

I just read your post about how you and Casper are in another topic and replied on that.

[porcupine]

My brother has now come back, only because he's fell out with his girlfriend. He's been lying and saying he had only planned to stay there temporarily. I know that if they hadn't fell out, he would still be there.

He's messing about with the household bills and won't let me see them. He's definitely up to something. He's managed to get hold of the mail.

He's said tonight how he thinks the cats are a tie. He thinks we're a burden. I wish he had stayed at his girlfriend's. I don't feel comfortable having him here. He's going to try to make up with her. I hope she takes him back. I don't trust him.
Though even if he's not here, he will still be up to something.

He is so crafty, lying and manipulative. I don't believe a word that comes out if his mouth. Why doesn't he piss off?

[JonsDragonEyes]

How is it going Porcupine ?? With your brother I mean. Any new updates ??

[porcupine]

He comes back, he stays at his girlfriend's sometimes. He's keeping me notified more now. I still don't trust him though. I'm just going to be as independent as possible.

[porcupine]

My brother and his girlfriend are up to something. She's planning to move away. He was saying the other night that they wanted me to go with them . I'm not falling for it. The rug will be pulled from under me again. I don't listen to his words any more.

I don't want to live with them anyway.They left me to rot. They obviously can't be trusted.There's nature where I live. I feel like I have to stay to protect it. There's people around me itching to get the bull-dozer out.

[JonsDragonEyes]

Geez. How are things going now ?? Any better yet.

[porcupine]

The same really. I'm sick of people round here. I'm treated like a joke because I like nature etc. There's people around here who are ruthless and selfish. They can't or won't identify with someone else's suffering. They just try to prey on it. I'm always having to be aware of ulterior motives, because I've been kicked when I'm down so mamy times.

They sense weakness a mile off. I'm a nervous wreck, and have to be alert all the time. Even if people are genuine, how do I know? I've come across so many wolves in sheep's clothing. It's like one of those TV movies, where so-called friends are, in fact, enemies.

I'm so isolated, but unfortunately the world is what it is and I will just have to get by on my own as much as possible.

How's Casper?