borderline personality disorder

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jane123
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Postby jane123 » Tue Oct 01, 2013 7:36 am

Hi karolanne,

im 22. feel very lost in life. its the physical and mental fatigue which is bringing me down, i feel like i cant mentally think and losing it

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karolanne
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Postby karolanne » Tue Oct 01, 2013 8:49 am

Hi,

Thoses are symptoms of borderline disorder, but other toubles too

One thing I read in a book about that disorder that I think represented me at some point : they said people affected by this disorder often feel like a hen without a head. Do you have that feeling?

I suggest you to consult a specialist to help you to know more about your situation. But be prepared : it's going to take more than one visit to make a diagnostic.

If you are on a waiting list, I suggest you to find book about that disorder. There are plenty of it. Choose one wrote by specialist.

Take care.

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Postby jane123 » Tue Oct 01, 2013 6:45 pm

yes i do feel the 'hen without a head' feeling... its when my mind goes blank and i start losing sight of my personality which worries me, then i disconnect with myself and the world.

noone in my life understands this feeling
think thats also why i feel more lost, but then i dont understand these mood swings myself.

are you seeing a specialist? i.e a psychologist or psychiatrist? did it help?

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Postby karolanne » Wed Oct 02, 2013 10:07 am

Hi,

Yes, I see specialists. I have a doctor and a psychiatrist. I was in therapy for years. I should still be, but money issues, so...

I'm on medication too. Medication helps me a lot. At first, I didn't want to take any medication because I felt like it was being weak. But at one point, it felt that I have no other choice. And to tell the truth, the first years of med were awful. It takes time to find the right medication for a person. For few years, I just though that one day, I will remove the medication because I felt it was crutch. But now, I accept that I need the meds and that I'll have to live with that all my life.

Now, I'm on the right medication. It sometimes need to be adjusted. But I can say that I feel good.

Before I saw the specialists and read books about the disorder, I was like you : I didn't understand what was going on with me. But the specialists, medication, therapy and books helped a lot. You know, only the fact to read about the "hen without a head" feeling made me felt better, like hey, I'm not alone.

The problem with that disorder is even in medical area, it's hard to get help because it's still something misunderstood. I had to try many psychiatrists before finding the one that understand me and help me.

I don't tell you that to discourage you. I just want you to know that there is a way to feel better, but it's not an easy one. But it's a good one. I sometimes regret to didn't start the process of this way earlier in my life. Sooner you'll start it, younger you'll feel better.

Take care.

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Postby jane123 » Wed Oct 16, 2013 7:01 pm

thanks for thr advice karolanne, im glad you found suited treatments.

my emotions are so up and down, happy one period, so empty the next. sigh. it makes me feel like im nt worth being around others wen im in my lows, as i even dont like my own attitude then, but i cnt jus switch it off.

sigh lol


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