Day after day it's just the S.S.D.D.nothing seems to change for the better.i cannot get motivated.i allow the past to drag me down.i am drowning in my own self pity.the only thing that comforts are these OTC pills.lord forgive me for doing this to this body of life he has given me.i'm falling apart beyond the seams.i pray and i pray for a way to better my life.i dig and dig only to find myself still in this pit i dug myself into.i try to dig my way out.nothing helps.nothing works.i find it all so hard to have the will to do something positive.with no family or friends how can this be done? what is the purpose of living when all that you love are gone? the immortal muzik of beethoven relaxes my mind.it soothes my eternal torment i feel on a daily basis.Years have passed and I keep thinking
What a fool I've been
I look back into the past and
Think of way back then
I know that I lost everything I thought I that could win
I guess I should have listened to my friends...that's where i sit.stuck in darkness.stuck in my own personal hell.god forgive me for my lazy,wicked ways.when will goodness and greatness and achievements of good come into my life? when? all i can do is pray.that's it.another day come another day gone.
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