Family Loss

[DapperDan]

Well here it goes..

Fresh out of the Marine Corps I decide to run away. Why I run? I have no idea but I know in my heart im not happy with what I have done while I was doing my time in the military. I drive. I get to Ohio. I stay with family until one day I go out to a camp ground and find myself talking with my future (almost wife). We get together. She tells me she is pregnant. (a month before we even meet). Its 2009 at the time so I know how it works these days. I tell her im ok with it. We fall in love and 8 months later she has a little boy. I was hesitant on cutting the cord but her mother insisted considering the real father was no where to be found. I raise Lochlan. I fall in love with him. My fiance made many attempts to split up with me due to arguing all the time. I try to leave but she calls me crying telling me "Daniel I cant do this without you". So I come back. This last time I actually did leave but instead of her calling me I call her. "I want to come home" I say. She tells me "no" Then she tells me she is having sex with her boss at work. YAY! No I sit here depressed. No more family. No more being daddy. No more diapers to change. I know I will never be able to get back with her but its not because of the sex or anything else she has done but Its for the fact that I have to let my little boy go. If we ever got back together I cant risk feeling this way again. Its almost like you have to treat them as if they ARE dead. I'm only 24. I don't even think I can finish this right now...

[Obayan]

I know dealing with loss is hard. We have to allow ourselves to grieve. I know they aren't deceased, but it's still a loss that needs to be acknowledged and allowed to be felt so that we can get beyond it and begin to build a new life again. I know how painfull it is. And I'm truly sorry you have to go thru this. But know that you aren't alone in this.