Am total loss

[cool]

I love my kids n family, but am sure lots of ppl in this world have the same situation as mine or even worst. Every month we have to worry on the bills that send to us, never an ending. I really feel ashame of myself for not being able to save for my family n kids.

Almost every month i need help from my sis which i really hate to make that final call. My mum staying with me and she senile, she is one of the main reason that make the whole house up side down due to lot of bad behaviour.

Whenever she made those disgusting behaviour, my mind always always tell me to bring her along and Jump . If i die together with her, then my kids and husband can have my CPF monies to pay off the stack of bills. My kids (age 15 ,14 and 12)also can buy the items they long to have or maybe my husband can bring them for a short holiday which they dream of it for many yrs.

Life is so unpredictable, we use to be stabble on our job when we r younger but thing changes as we age, am tired for this 8yrs of hardship i went through with my husband. Am really really very very tired

[jj]

hey cool

big hugs to you. hang in there hun. i know its hard, and life can be just so tiring, but hang in there. *hugs*

jj

[cool]

Thanks JJ, i will hang on till the day to come. Thanks for the Big hugs