losing it

[foreverCRYING]

i feel like im losing it.... i swear i cry maybe 1000000 times a day and i feel like it will never stop. im so tired of being depressed ALL the time. and its like no one will help me! my boyfriend just tells me to stop letting everything get to me, to stop taking things to heart. but how i can i help it when hes constently direspecting me and putting me down. my mom says i need to get out there, spend more time with the family but all my family does is fight, put eachother down.... and my friends. if you can even call them that. all they care about is getting drunk and having drama. no one really cares about me, they're only they're when im partying and drinkin 2 but as soon as i do my own thing, i have no one there with me. i feel so down, like im not worth anything, im fat and ugly and i feel like thats all i'll ever be... i just want to know when will i be happy with me?!

[uplift]

hi Forevercrying, I agree that you are on the wrong bus - you should be on the one that says foreverhappy - and that will happen. What your boyfriend is really trying to say, is that the people who are putting you down are the really unhappy ones, cos if they were happy, they wouldn't do it. So think of yourself as someone special - in fact you are more happy than the others, so feel good about that for a start. Also imagine doing happy things, and maybe others might pick up your vibe too, and become nicer, when they see you are happy, and not angry with them. Get on that other bus, and hopefully, others might join you.

[Obayan]

Hi. Sometimes, people do the wrong things for the right reasons. You are going out and partying and getting drunk because you want to be accepted. Wrong thing, right reason. But still the wrong thing. I figured out a long time ago that there will always be some people who like me and some who don't. So if someone isn't going to like me, or being around me, let it be for the person I am and not who i'm trying to be. At least that way, i know that those i found that do like me, do it for the right reasons.