My Story

[regent23]

Well here i am , 49 years old, had what I thought was a good family, my wife while not loving at all for the past 10 years, i still thought i would live with her forever and as faithful to her the entire 22 years. Last year she started changing how she dressed, going out having a great time, but not wanting anything to do with me. I caught her on the phone with a man - she denied it and this went on all summer, in the fall i really tried to show her how i loved her and i discovered hurtful love letters and she said very mean things to me but i tried to the point where i got sick with anxiety and could not go out, i am now "dosabled" by panic disorder and cant really do anything, Im living at my mothers house , about to lose my job and lately have not en been so nice to my mother. I am a nice man and i did my best but everything is out of control , i have no more income, no happyness, i barely go out and to top it off i broke my front tooth on a bagel yesterday.

I am trying so hard but i have no friends, nothing, i am just surviving and I have nothing to look forward to and Im very lonely

so I tried to get myself out in the workd and at least find soneone to talk to and maybe start dating, I met who i thhought was a nice girl and we were just chatting and i get a phone call from some lunitic telling me this woman is his girlfriend so needless to say thats over.

It just goes freom bad to worse

Im just sharing this to get it off my chest .. Im OK and bumpoing along but I am just so down.

ANyway ...Take care and thanks for giving me a place to post my story,

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Hello regent23,

Welcome to the forum. Might I suggest the depression chat room to you? There are lots of understanding and caring people there. A place to talk with the room, get instant replies. Really a good place and I am sure you will get understanding and support from it. Just a thought.

Feel free to continue writing here, I know it does help to get things written down and off the mind.

Warmsoul