The sad man

[Eric]

Hey guys, I’m getting pretty sick of talking to concealers or over analyzing family members so I thought I would try this forum out. So here is my story, almost exactly a year ago things got so dark for me that I came scary close to doing myself in. that’s when I first went to seek professional help. Since then they’ve been changing my drugs up every few months and still haven’t got the right combination. But through that I managed to graduate high school, what got me through was the thought that it will all be better in college. And it was for the first few months, but then things got dark again. To deal with it I spent more time than I would like to admit getting drunk, high, or overdosing on sleeping meds. I realized that if I stayed at school much longer I would loss myself. So I got a medical withdrawal from school and am now I’m back home trying to decide what to do with myself. Surprisingly I’m feeling pretty happy right now, but I’ve been staying busy looking for a job and I’m worried I might sink back into a depression. It’s really screwing up my life. I mean when I’m happy I’m that guy that gets up at dawn to get a workout in and am extremely motivated about life. But then in these depressions, I spent days in bed hating life. I don’t think words can describe how deep of a pit depression throws me in. I just want to talk to some people that know where I’m at, and learn some ways you have all learned to deal with your depression to avoid these low points that are making things so difficult.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((( Eric ))))))))))))))))

Stick with your doctor, it does take awhile to get meds sorted and on the correct ones. Depression isn't an easy thing to deal with nor is it always easy to get the correct meds for oneself.

People here do understand for we live with all you do. Determination and trying to do all you can to handle this is a big assignment that we do struggle with.

There is a chat room with this site as well, many find it so helpful, but this is up to you, if you want to give it a try.

Keep posting and know your posts will be read. Some chatters don't answer but that's fine for there are those that do. Both acceptable here.

Warmsoul

[crystalgaze]

Hey again Eric! To cope better on your down days, perhaps you want to try making a plan of some sort?

Is there anything you like to do? Positive things that make you feel better? Well.... How about doing those?

When I was staying in bed, or just staying in the house or whatever else, I made a little note to myself. I started with challenging myself--just a little bit--on those days.

If I stayed in bed all day, then I challenged myself to get up, even if it's just for 10 minutes.

If I played video games for too many hours, then I challenged myself to get up & take a break from it.

If I stayed in doors, then I challenged myself to stick my foot on the back porch (since I feel more comfortable back there than on the front porch). Sometimes I challenged myself to even go outside in the backyard....

If it's an apartment, I challenged myself to go down in the lobby & sit. (Where I used to live, the lobby had chairs.)

Some days I didn't feel like eating. I challenged myself to eat a little something--even if all I do is drink something. Either way, I got some calories in my system.

Stuff like that.... You have to find something that works for you.