Im Searching ,Hard for you all ,,,

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My dearest freinds ,to many of you now are so silent and in pain ,,as selfish as it may seem ,I miss you so much each and everyone of you ,no need for names here ,to many for that ,but i search for you in the dark ,and i hope we can find each other soon ,Fran is a little poorly but she has my constant attention ,and even though were both happy ,,i suffer in the darkness for the silent absence of you ,because i know you all suffer so much ,and i feel helpless ,even my words dont seem to reach you ,but i do understand that pain so well ,and i know you will feel better and you will start to post when you feel better ,,,trust me you will ,and i will hope and wish this for you all ,,,,hugs (((((everyone))))),,for now ,,remain strong and ill be here when you return home ,,,,talk to you all soon ,stay strong and very safe ,,,,love Ken xxxxx

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The visitor has cast its net over you all ,i knew my good fortune would come at a price ,So now i have given it up ,and the dark clouds have started to roll across the horizon ,a promise made is not to be taken back
it was given to one in need. in the hope you may all rise from the darkness that envelops you at this time ,When the post is read ,acceptence may not come easily ,but not to take it would just be to waste it ,for i cannot carry it again once given up. These shades of darkness are nothing to me ,and my mind cares not anymore The Nightporter brings no pain .A cold silence is his only weapon ,You must stand up soon my freinds
love ken xxx ,,Nightporter Comes ,Nightporter Takes away !

[shatteredhopes]

Your happiness did not cause our pain my brother, in fact we celebrate the happiness you have been feeling as a victory for all of us, something to give us a taste of hope that we too will experience relief from the visitor. Stay up as long as you can and do not sacrifice it for it will not relieve another's pain, and we need to feel there is a way out, which you are demonstrating and leading the way...so let those clouds roll back across the sky from which they came and go back to the sunshine and light of the candle you burn for all of us and see our spirits rejoicing that one of our family is experiencing relief...and give us that taste of hope as we cheer you that we too can breath again in the future.

((((((((((Ken))))))))))) big big hugs.

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Hey its ok (((((shatteredhopes))))),,,you should know that my mind tells me ,what i think is right ,and as much as you feel like givin up and cant fight those feelings ,my mind has decided that my happiness is at a cost ,To my freinds ,,So to click ,
submit in a few moments ,is to submit myself once more to the place were
i have spent most of my life ,,thanks for your kind words ,but my mind is made up for me ,so here i go !,,,hugs (((((shatteredhopes and all my dear freinds ))))) love ken ,,,ta ,ta ,,,,,,,Click !

[Mich]

Your happiness is not causing our despair, dear friend. Please don't submit to the darkness but stay in this lovely glow of light that you have had for several days now. I am standing and still fighting.

[crystalgaze]

Indeed, please do enjoy your moment..... Misty had a thread called Living in the Moment (I think)... That's what you should do! & me too!! In fact.... ALL OF US.... (Yeah, it can be a toughie, though....)


I think that when I feel good, I try to sop it all up a little because I don't know what the next day is going to be like or even the next 20 minutes....


This is your moment of happiness that you've been waiting for all of your life.... Take it now, so as you don't miss out on it!

Lots of love always!

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Yes mich and onika ,,your both right of course ,,but i felt down and thought my happy had been taken from me ,,but its not the case ,it is the strain of fran being poorly that has me feeling lost just now ,,but im getting her better and ill keep my happy safe ,,till shes on her feet again ,,thankyou for your kind words ,,lots of love and hugs (((((mich )))))
hugs (((((onika))))),,,,,see you soon love ken and fran xxxxx

[crybaby1086]

Ken, Be sure to give Fran my regards. I hope she feels better soon. In the meantime stay strong my friend and soak up all the happiness you can, you deserve it! We all do. Robyn

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hey robyn thankyou so much ,,nice of you to pop in ,,glad your doing we,ll i,ll tell fran you sent your wishes ,,dont worry i,ll look after her ,,you look after the 2 of you ,,,,,regards to john,,, keep in touch ,,
hugs ((((((robyn)))))),,lots of love ken xxxx