Me

[Katsaysthemeow]

Well I guess everything sort of started when my mom and my dad split up, they were constantly fighting and they didn't pay attention to me. All of my other siblings (three of them) left home already. I was left in a house with just my mom, and after what happened between her and my dad she changed. She didn't clean anything or buy food, so I never wanted to go home. I started drinking and doing drugs (nothing to "hard" I guess), soon that didn't even make me happy. I turned into a girl that constantly has to please everyone and it becomes so hard to make everyone happy after a couple of years. After about ten or twelve years my parents got back together and to everyone else it was great. Except I hate it, every time I see the fight or get angry it scares me now. I avoid my family now and stay in room all the time. I am scared to leave it now... The depression/ or whatever you want to call it stopped for about a month until my uncle died and then my entire world died. Now I run from everything because I don't want to face reality.
Anyways, I am nineteen now and I am going to be going to university and all I can think of is the fact that everyday I don't want to live. I see every one so happy and I just don't care about anything anymore, its not fair there is nothing wrong with me and yet I can't be happy. I just want people to stop judging me and thinking I am weird or odd. I just want to be accepted! I have decided to seek help, I am going to be seeking assistance from my doctor now with everything.

[TackingIntoTheWind]

I think you're wise to seek help. I ended up going to see my doctor and telling her exactly how depressed/terrified/lost I felt, and that turned out to be the start of my recovery!
Best of luck with your doctor, and I hope that your time at university is as good as mine was. You're more intelligent and perceptive about your depression than I was at your age!

[Monty]

Katsaythemeow,

It sounds like you have gone through a lot in your life.

Think it is a good plan to go and seek help.

It would be great if you could keep in touch, and keep us up to speed on how you are doing.