EveryDay Disaster

[AndreaCoe]

Everyday i feel a sense off strong emotions i cant controll, this feeling hard to describe i just want to bawl, while i find myself dying inside i look normal on the out, if only people could see threw my false advertising shell then mabey they would understand, everday i walk a dark road alone, the further down the worst and darker it gets,

if i could have 1 wish i'd use it on my mom, thats how twisted my mind is, though all ive been threw alll i cant think of is others. well when dose it come my time? to think about myself. To care for myself rather than place all my energy living and living to make others happy

i guess no matter how hard i try i cant help myself i help others. and with disaster quickly falling it seems my time is running out....

[xn728]

i wish i could help you work this one out ,i feel you must find some adult in a position of authourity to advise you ,you should not have to deal with this alone ,,,,dont feel alone we will always listen ,,,,,,,xn728

[lisalou]

Andrea...i think it is beautiful that you still care for others so much despite your own pain, that is not a twisted mind, that is a kind mind mature way beyond your years. It saddens me that you are going through so much and feel so alone. I often feel like i am putting on an act for people and it makes you feel so drained and even more seperate from people doesn't it? Does your school have a counsellor or do you have any friends you trust enough to talk about how you're really feeling? I hope you find some kind of support and remember you can keep on chatting to us too

[shatteredhopes]

Andrea, Lisalou and Ken are right...it would be great if you could find a teacher, school counselor or social worker, family doctor, or minister you could talk to or even the parent of a friend. You can talk to us all you want, but I think it would be great if you could find an adult whom you could talk to and share with and to help guide you and be your advocate, maybe help you some...please try to think if there's someone you could confide in that would be trustworthy.

Its very hard to deal with so much sorrow and tragedy, and yet I am at an age where I am more used to it...this is alot for you deal with in addition to all the normal hard parts of growing up. I worry about you dear one and hope you can find someone in your life you can reach out to for help, especially since your mom won't get you a counselor. Maybe another adult talking with her, advocating on your behalf, might change her mind. Please think about it. We care and want you to have as much support as possible.