ive become insecure/goodnight

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hi my dear dear freinds ,ive read my posts and replys over the last couple of days ,and ive been ok ,i was so sure i may have written something and upset someone ,you know what ,im feeling insecure
im that worried about losing my freinds here im twisting myself in big knots ,i wanted to run away before i did any harm ,or because i had done harm ,but when i saw what warm feeling posts i got earlier ,i knew i must stop whatever was happening quickly ,i looked at everything and its fine just normal replys ,so thats good ive reply to a couple more since then ,
and i have a doctors meet tommorrow and i will speak about my new visions ,a lot of us are particuly bad just at present ,and i do miss my freinds ,but i do think im definatly feeling insecure ,i hope this feeling does not last ,i dont like it ,its confusing me ,lisa i hope you feel better soon ,please hang in there ,mich youve done well today ,infact youve done very we.ll ,,s/hopes your posting around and really settling in ,and monty a little queit but your presence always lifting ,i do wish a5 would make a show ,aim is missing but then shes full of her man thing ,crystal is in and out ,mixed up i quess but she.ll return soon warmie girl shes ok always here ,i looked at the posts from when i ran away from the forum last time ,it was very sad ,and i must not do this again ,its not fair to hurt peoples feelings this way ,i need some help and i ll seek it out ,and all i need here i already have ,you each and everyone ,i think i can say nice things ,but its nothing compared to what words i am given from here ,thankyou for being here for me ,i wont let you down ,,,,goodnight everybody sleep well ,even if your down tommorrow please come back ,always i need you all ,,,,,,goodnight
mich, crybaby ,lisa ,monty,s/hopes aim, a5,onika,warmie girl,night everyone

[Hanging On]

Ken relax. I assure you that you have been nothing but supportive and overly helpful to people on this site that have experienced your creative words.

I want to personally thank you for the attention you have afforded me, and the words of peace and understanding that I have so longed for from other people.

You my friend are an inspiration for me. I only hope that I will be able to say latter that I have remarked to or added a post that has been motivational for someone like yours have been for me.

Take good care, and maybe together we can fight off the demons that haunt us.

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morning hanging on ,you have done here what you hoped ,your kind words have made me smile this morning ,i satart today with yet another new freind ,thankyou for your kind words ,hope we can talk more soon ,feel not alone ,everyday i suffer to ,my outside life ,hides something inside ,and if it ever got out ,stephen king would think he writes childrens tales ,,,,,keep as you say dear freind ,,hanging on but if you lose your grip we will catch your fall,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,ken

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forgot to add this ,i see my doc at 8,30 am ,i will tell him about my ramblings and increaseing visions ,promise ,i work till 5pm today so ill let you know how it goes ,,question ! can you still type in a straght jacket mmmm,,,,,,,,,,,,,,ken
best wishes all my dear freinds hope things are better today ,ill walk with you all today for company

[lisalou]

hi ken, am guessing you've seen the doctor now (although you never know with doctor's waiting times...) , hope you have been heard and been helped

[Mich]

I wish you wouldn't worry about your words....your comments are so kind and supportive and you have a real gift with words. You could never offend me. Please know that your words have a tremendous positive impact on us.
I hope the doctor's appt went well. It's about noon your time now. I hope work goes well.

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i missed these replys im so sorry ,yes the doc uped my lithium to 1000
from 800 this made me nosedive and i was off the forum for to days ,im ok now and im feeling really very positive ,im sick of being trapped in unhappiness and i want to try and make my life a little better ,no plan yet but im doing some thinking ,lisa your really poorly ,i think of you and i know you will feel better soon ,mich you have your ups and downs ,your concerned about everyone else just now ,that very healthy and your very kind ,you will both begin to shine soon ,,,,,,,,,,((((((ken)))))))

[crybaby1086]

Glad to hear the meds are working. I'm really excited for you!