Feel dead inside

[Billymax1970]

I am 55 male that has lost everything! I was married for 30 years s owner of a successful restaurant. I was very heavy and sick with diabetes. I had gastric bypass and lost 275lbs and the diabetes. I also lost my wife and life because I became addicted to alcohol and for tha last 15 years I was in and out of rehab and treatment and psych wards never before that surgery did I have any of theses issues I have tried to lilll myself 6 times and now I sit in a program lost with no one. I do have a beautiful 19 year old daughter that has so much hope and support for me and my mom the same . I feel like giving up nothing feels good I haven’t felt happy or joy in years