Hopeless

[miawolf]

I don’t even know how to put this into words, but I feel completely trapped and exhausted. I’m an asylum seeker in Canada who fled the U.S., and right now I’m stuck living with someone who causes me deep emotional pain. I don’t feel safe emotionally, but I also don’t have anywhere else to go.
I have no family here. I don’t have my driver’s license. I don’t have money or support. The shelters that exist are over an hour away, and even then there’s no guarantee I would have a bed. Every option feels like a dead end, and it’s terrifying to feel like there is literally nowhere to land.
Living in this situation is destroying my mental health. I feel constantly on edge, drained, and broken down. Being around someone who hurts you emotionally every day makes you start to doubt yourself, your worth, and whether you even deserve peace. I feel invisible and stuck between enduring pain or risking homelessness.
My depression feels heavier than ever. I wake up already overwhelmed. I feel hopeless, powerless, and scared that I’m trapped in this situation with no way out. I didn’t come here to give up, but right now I don’t know how to keep going when every door feels closed.
I’m posting because I need support, understanding, or guidance from people who might understand what it’s like to be an asylum seeker, isolated, and emotionally unsafe. I don’t want advice that says “just leave” — if it were that simple, I would have already done it. I just need someone to hear me and remind me that I’m not alone.
Thank you for listening.