Feeling lost and alone trying something new

[Lexi2Jess]

Hi for anyone who reads this my name is Lexi and I am new here this is a first time for me but I really need an outlet of some sort and feel as if I have no one else to talk to.. I have never felt so lost in my life and cant even begin to describe how lonely I feel. I have 2 beautiful kids that have literally been the only things to be honest keeping me alive.. I am here because I don't want to give up on them but sometimes I feel that they would be better without me. I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was 15 and try to hide it as much as I can but unfortunately it has been becoming to much to bear with that being said I have tried talking with therapists and been given medications but have given up on that route.. hoping to find some people with similar things going on with their lives so I don't feel so alone..