Here & Now

[HoldingOn]

Do you ever feel like you've never fitted in? Like you're just watching someone else living your own life? Unable to control what happens
This jittery sense right through me. Almost jumping out of my skin every time a noise breaks the silence. Feeling so alone, but not wanting anyone here. The guilt of not doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Wanting to be happy but not knowing how to be.

Nobody knows. I Can fake that I'm okay to them just so they won't worry, and I won't feel so embarrassed.

But I'm Not okay.