20 years old got no friends and just broke up with my gf

[Lostmimja1994]

I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I have tried and tried again to keep on going. When I was 14 years old (Now 20 I got told it was going to get better. I never really spoke in school at all always found it hard to talk to people. When I left I started wonder what I was going to do with my life. I got into college done 2 years of computing on 2 different courses. I then went onto taking business. I have recently lost all my friends due to this girl I was with as well. I recently ended it she was happy spend a load of my money then shout at me for wanting to talk to her about. I dumped her on the Saturday morning. Partly due to her pressuring me to smoking some weed with her friends. I am felt so pressured by taking it that I smoked it then she just left me on the coach laughed and ignored me when I was having strong chest pains. But now after 1 and half years she ends it all and doesn't want to talk anymore. She cheated about 7 times I forgave her. She swore at me a lot and told me to do stuff. argued alot but I still love her.

[Lostmimja1994]

I really need someone right now