Realized I'm a failure

[XavierHP]

I finished High School last month. Now I'm supposed to go to College, study psychology like I think I should. But what's the use? I'm a ridiculous person without any talents or redeeming qualities, can't take care of myself for my life thanks to my overprotective mother and my absent father. And they are two idiots I'm getting sick of living with. They are always stating the obvious, like if I'm an idiot. The whore whom I call mother says I have to go out and leave my bedroom and meet people. No shit, Sherlock? Really? I KNOW I HAVE TO, DAMMIT! But no one ever calls me to go out. Understandable, since I'm the last person I'd hang out with, I'm so bland and uninteresting and can't talk very well with people. I'm a coward. I'm fated to rot in my bedroom because I'm useless. Also, the girl I like(or liked, dunno) doesn't really have any interest in me, even after I called her to go out and she said she'd vive me an answer. But she didn't. She doesn't like me, exactly like all the other girls I was interested in. Of course they wouldn't. Who would like me, right? Ahahaha... I'm a lost cause. Maybe I should just disappear. I'll be alone for all my life. After all, I can't love even my parents who despite their mistakes took good care of me. I'm not sure if I love them. That's just another proof I'm an idiot and a failure. That's just how I'm feeling right now. Thought I'd share my sadness with you. Even if I'm a lost cause... please, someone... Help me. I'm lost. I don't know how, but I need help. I'm afraid of the loneliness that seems to wait for me.

[ThePolisher]

No talents or qualities? But you've just finished High School. Many don't and don't get the opportunity to go to College. Will you live at College?

[XavierHP]

First I'm not even sure if I'm going to college, since I don't know if I achieved the enough points in the test. Also, they passed everybody in my class, even though I wasn't a bad student at all. But I'm not going to live in the college, I'm going to be annoyed by my parents all those years. I just am a lazy ass who doesn't want to work, at least not while I'm in college (except if I work with something involving psychology, like working in a clinic as an apprentice or something like that), but if don't manage to go to college this year my parents are going to force me to work. But yeah, I don't think I have any kind of talent, I even tried to learn new stuff and hobbies to make me "unique" and have something special, only to fail pathetically.

[100footpole]

Xavier,

Your English is better than many American High School graduates can write ... and much better than the Portuguese of anyone I know!

Having two languages is a wonderful base for opportunities you may want to create. Have you looked on the web for opportunities for translators to and from Portuguese? I think you might be able to get jobs like that to work remotely and to follow your dreams to become a psychologist.

[XavierHP]

Well, I learned english on my own by playing videogames when I was a kid (of course it backfired and now I play on my computer everyday the entre day) and I considered this option when I was younger, but...
You see, I had a talking problem in which I couldn't prounounce the "r" in portuguese words, they had a "g" sound, and I'd look like an idiot when I talked. I went through a treatment last year and this problem is mostly gone, so maybe I could do that.
Still then, I don't know if psychology is what I want. I can't even call it a dream. In fact, I never really had a dream, except for, say, have a girlfriend, which doesn't depend on me, and who would stay with a coward and weak-minded person like me, right? Anyways, thanks for the advice, 100footpole, I'll think about it.