Depressed (A Poem That Describes Where I am)

[longing4direction]

It's hit me like a ton of bricks
I have come to terms that life is a bitch
I have done all I could to fit in
No matter the rules I follow, I still don't win
I'm told I don't fit and that I'm insecure
But due to my experiences, I can't help but to be unsure
Losing the battle with my weight
To the point where I can no longer operate
nothing is making any sense
I can't trust anyone, constantly on defense
I am told I try too hard
but if I don't,
then I'm the social retard
No one cares to understand me
Not even a phone call to see if I'm alive at least
I can't keep friends or anything
I'm not even under anyone's wing
No guidance, no love no sense of direction
All i have is this debilitating depression.

[Independence]

Longing4direction, i love your poem. I understand exactly what it says only too much. What I don't understand, though, is how you can feel that way and still be able to write such a beautiful poem.

FOr me, depression has robbed my ability to think, to express, to feel.

You've been able to express yourself so wonderfully. You truly have a gift. Perhaps this is your direction, your path to recovery...

BEst wishes. you are not alone.

[ledlou]

Independence,

As you replied to Longing4direction's poem, you already expressed yourself.

But I suspect what you mean, even if I have feelings, emotions inside, I will not be able to share or express that with anybody. I always feel myself misunderstood, looking at people through a glass, but they cannot hear me and never understand me...

Take care!

[Megan7890]

I understand how you feel by reading this poem you express how you feel by writing and you have such a great talent

[Kris48]

Hi. Wow! What a poem. That was great. It sounded like you were describing me. I know exactly how you feel. Hang in there, and we will make it together. Best Wishes.