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[aentti]

Hi everyone.... I am a male of 25 years old. I've been living with depression and anxiety for many many years now. I've never visited a shrink. I really want help. But I don't want people to see me either. I'll start from the beginning. I would like to tell 2 of my stories.

It started when I was 10. My mother have always been a drug addict and all her boyfriends also. My mother and father seperated when I was 3 I think.
Anyway, I started to feel bad cause 1 summer my mother and her boyfriend were so messed up and they couldn't find their stash. So they came to me and asked: Hey where is our candy? As a little boy I had no clue what they meant. So after awhile after they screamed at me and my mothers boyfriend had enough. He started hitting while my mother stood next to him and laughed. By some miracle way I managed to get up and run to the balcony and jump down from the 2nd floor. The fall was about 3 meters. I managed to call my father from a store and he came and pick me up, but i've never told anyone about this.


And now recently My bestfriend had sex with my girlfriend, who also knocked her up. And now they both hate me. I was ready to forgive her, but I don't know if I can. I've tried to talk with them both and telling them how I feel.
But nothing seems to help. As you can imagine, I'm stuck.
I have a good job, I have money, But I can't be happy, I don't think I was even happy with her even though I was with her for a pretty long time.

These 2 are the stories I wanted to tell.

I am sure I am not the only one who experienced this? I think someone have a similar story. If you could please respond to me I would appreciate it.

[sousui94]

You need to forget about them. They betrayed you and now they are mad at you? Let them go and deal with they've done. You need to focus on yourself. Start doing things by yourself. Try to meet new people. Start a conversation with a stranger. Be with yourself for a little, figure out who you are and what you want.