My story about how my boyfriend left me; I need help :'(

[Odah]

forget it.

[Ieris]

Hello Philipp,

Sorry to hear about your break up with Jonas, I hope you feel better after writing all that out.
I am sorry if this is not what you want to hear but from your post it doesn't seem like it was a healthy relationship. He had massive mood swings and he took things out on you, you may want to blame it on the medication but a part of it was because he no longer loved you.... I know that sounds harsh but deep down I think you know it and you just need to find a way to let go. Don't lie to yourself that he will change his mind because that will only prolong your suffering because you are giving yourself false hope. Ask yourself why do you want to go out with a guy who treats you this way and makes you cry more than smile?

I think you did everything you can for him, you was there to support/help him with his problems and you still tried to keep in contact after the many times he had cut you off. I know it is brutal how he deleted and blocked you from various social websites which leaves you desperate to contact him in any way you can, via friends etc. This will only annoy him even more and make him not want to listen to what you have to say. You can beg, do everything he says but he seems adamant about his decision so you need to get that in your head however difficult it may seem to accept.

Try to accept that he has moved on and you need to as well. I know it seems like you can't live without him and you see his face whenever you close your eyes. You are oblivious to what is going on around you because your mind is filled with him but someday you will get over it so keep trying. I have been in that situation many times before at 16, 18, 19, 21... so on and after each break up I thought I'd never make it but I always do. These experiences only make you stronger and helps give you a clearer picture of what you want in a girl/guy.

You should let it all out and cry all you want, just get it all out of your system. It is normal to want keep him in your life in any way even if he treats you bad but that is not healthy for you and gets in the way of your recovery. So put any pictures, gifts or anything that reminds you off him in a box or even better throw it away. When you are ready delete his contacts, emails, messages as well. He is in your past, your history, try to focus on what you need to do now and your future. You have other aspects of your life that you need to attend to, like your studies, what you want to do with your life etc. Fill up the time you used to spend on him on something else, new friends, new hobbies etc it will help you move forward.

I can't post links here so I'll quote:

"The five stages of grief introduced by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross in 1969 have become a universal guideline for what someone experiencing a loss can expect to go through: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. You won't necessarily go through all of these stages in your journey toward healing and even if you do, you may not go through them in order. Still, it's good to know what you might expect and understand that what you're feeling is perfectly normal."

I hope you feel better soon x

[Odah]

forget it