I just wanted to put this down somewhere

[38toolong]

I just turned 38. I didn't think I would live this long. I have been alone all my life. I never had friends much less a girlfriend. It has always bothered me but it is getting worse. There was a time when i weighed close to 400 pounds. I decided to lose it and led myself to believe if I did things would change. Of course they didn't. I find more and more I am gaining weight back because really what was the point. It is all I have ever known to be alone and depressed. I really am tired of it.

[CrazyLady17]

Welcome this this forums first of all.

Hope you find all the support you need here.

Keep reaching out if possible and when it helps.

We are here and we are listening.

So sorry to hear about what's happened.

(((Hugs)))

[Jdero]

As CrazyLady said, feel free to express more of what's on your mind. I am a few years behind you but I have come to understand that indecision is much worse than even the poorer of two realistic alternatives.

Sometimes we just need someone to put a plan in our face, and then after we listen and execute, we laugh about how easy it could have been if we had only taken the initiative ourselves.

Best wishes,

JD

[CrazyLady17]

Thank you!