Just feel like I'm getting worse.....

[rozeee]

I've suffered from panic/anxiety disorder and depression for over 20 years. I'm currently on clonazepam for panic, and have been on it for almost 20 years. My depression is getting worse....it's usually awful during the winter months, but I've always been able to 'buck' up come this time of year. Not this year tho. I cannot go on anti depressants because I'm on meds for breast cancer. I can't stop crying....practically everyday now. It purges everything, and I do feel better, but I don't want to live the rest of my life like this. I cry out of the blue, but usually it starts awhile after waking in the morning. My anxiety has gone through the roof as well. It's almost like these two demons are working in tandem to sabotage my every day life. I do go to counseling, have hypnotherapy, and now currently a naturopath for acupuncture. Does anyone else cry relentlessly for apparently no reason ??? I have a wonderful like, and this 'mental illness' puts a black mark on everything. I just want to experience joy again...

Thoughts anyone ???

Thanks so much !!!

[Pilule]

If your depression gets worse in the winter, you might benefit from light therapy.

[rozeee]

thank you, but I do light therapy every morning, along with walking etc. Don't know why this bout of depression isn't getting better...could be that I may have to be on my bc meds for an additional 5 years, when I thought I'd be off of them in December, leaving the door open for me to take an anti-depressant....I have to say, in all my years of suffering from this, it has never been this bad....thanks for your thoughts tho !!!

[Pilule]

There's nothing wrong with taking medication, unless the side effects are hard to deal with.

[rozeee]

I'd be on an anti-depressant in a heart beat, but I can't while on breast cancer medication. There's only one, Effexor, that doesn't interfere with the efficacy of the bc med, but the side effects were terrible, so I quickly came off of it. I'm considering coming off of my bc meds, so that I can go on an anti-depressant...it's a choice...quantity of life over quality of life...a big decision for sure

[Pilule]

Maybe you should wait for the chimo to end and start the antidepressant?