Maybe..

[_Ihatethislife/:]

maybe im a failure.. maybe i believe to much and then let my own self down /: maybe things wont get better but maybe one day they will. Maybe,ITS TIME TO CHANGE.. who knows. once again i have let myself down. should i just give up? or keep holding on? everything was turning out perfect, i wasnt selfharming anymore.. and now, im back to where i started but even worst. i keep selfharming.. i hate myself for that. i have lost again /: and im scared. im looking for help in every direction, but its so hard. i guess that im going to have to pick myself back up again, and keep trying.. keep holding on..

[babey-dol]

Thats the best thing you can try n do ... Pick urself up... Ppl can help u bt they cant take the problems away n most the time we end up hatin or recentin that person because they fail to understand us...n they never will ... Even us ppl who feel thry same as u do cant help coz every1 lives r different ... U need to do it for urself ... I have to deal wid it every day n its not easy bt we have to atleast try... I have no real friends left nenre impushin my boyfriend away coz i feel he deserves better... I dnt wana socialise bt at the same time is in need of a good friends shoulder... I jst wana b alone i dnt wana b arnd ne1 coz i dnt wana put them dwn too... I dnt get ne support frm my family n cry myself too sleep most nites hopin to never wake up... Its always a battle but a battle best won by urself... X

[sbw]

One thing to remember, the self harm isn't going to help you. Before you do it, remember, in the end, you didn't do anything to help yourself. Find some way to replace that coping skill. You are trying to cope, by doing it, but there are better things of course, what better things. Well, i love meditation, I read books by the dalai lama, really gets you out of your head and your brain that just keeps you down. meditation helps you to calm yourself down and stop thinking as much. Writing in a journal, even if it is about harming yourself, you aren't really harming yourself, and it makes you feel better, well it has me. Then call a counselor if you can, or tell a close friend, knowing they care helps. Get rid of the things in your house that you are harming yourself with. Try going to a doc to try meds maybe? Counseling helps, they will help you address what is really hurting you, not the self harm, but what makes you hurt to cause you to want to hurt yourself. You can grow from that. Can you get into counseling do you think?