Why its so hard for me to go out again

[kay.ine]

After my 3rd depression breakdown, I've made a lot of improvements in my life. I changed my school, major, and living style since i am living by myself without any roommates.
I no longer have massive breakdowns and I don't feel as devastated as i used to feel at some point.

But for a while it has been so hard for me to approach new people and visit new places.
I struggle almost everyday to step outside of my home. Sometimes making it to school is stressful.
I don't want to tell any of my family members about this because they will start to worry again.

I know that my current living style is not healthy. I know i shouldn't be this stressed to go out and face people everyday.
I want to change this so much but simply 'trying to make friends' just makes me even more nervous around people.

If anyone is going through similar problem or know what i should do please let me know.