Wondering if anyone else feels this

[Thatoneguy23x]

Does anyone feel like they just want to die? I'm not going to intentionally take my life, just that I wish I could just die some other way car accident etc. A lot of the times I will hear like someone died in a car accident and a lot of the times I'm like lucky them. I know how that sounds but I wish it was me and not them. I just don't see the point on loving in this life.