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This is the method by which depression operates. This is the way that depression pounds me. It is relentless and is activated for me by mistakes, even the smallest ones. I have no perspective on what constitutes a large mistake. They all appear gigantic. Yesterday I forgot to put out the garbage for...

A good poem. I like the refrain.

I know cutting like you. A poignant poem. I have not cut for just over two years.

So true. There is hope though: "That if I didn't have the support I do/
I'd snuff em out like a candle." Thank you for that. I needed to hear it. Now if I only could believe it.

Very nice. I enjoyed reading it. A river of emotion smooth flowing through absolute hurt.

Yes, the struggle inside is all consuming, unescapable. My great fear and wish is what happens when I stop struggling.

Wow! Very nice. I like your writing style. I remember many nights, many, many similar nights flooded with alcohol to remove the pain that it never could.

"Tarnished dogma" is my favorite phrase.

when i move to kiss your cheek, you pull away when i touch your shoulder, you shrug off my hand when i say goodnight, you don't respond when i arrive or leave, you don't meet my eyes when i say i love you, where do the words go? Yes. This is unlove. I have felt it before. It hurts but we see it com...

when the morning sun arises shafts of golden pain piercing my eyes forcing my shadows into a new day scorching my tears into ash an empty world fades into being a barren wasteland without you the soulless existence of nothing but wait, that sound soft steps approach near grey trees become green sma...

When Did You Ever Jesus You do not feel my struggles and pain, Grief all my days and shame. You did not walk with guilt for crimes committed, Regret of failures in life or Wanted to have never been born. When did you plan for suicide? What demons pounded your mind screaming? You did not hate yoursel...

Motivation feels like a deep mountain stream, small at first, sliding a gradual slope through fir and pine, huckleberry bushes, and wild underbrush green, brown, thick. Picking up speed, cutting a wider path, bouncing over rocks, fallen tree trunks that try but can not plug up the mounting rush of c...

@ I am Larry, I read your other post and wanted to bring it back here with your original post: I experience similar feelings. I am 62 and have extreme grief, guild, and self-condemnation over time--decades--lost. All of the good that I once had, I destroyed by my own doing. I could handle my life f...

It's something I've discovered since both finding a medication that actually works for me, and turning 30. I now feel this sense of loss and almost of mourning for all the years that I lost to this ridiculous disease. I understand that 30 isn't old, but hey. I'm on the front end of this new generat...

I am 62 and depressed. I would like to hear from older others with depression. How do you cope with being depressed for so many years? The suicide of Robin Williams really hit me hard. He was my age and could not live one more day. I have been thinking a lot about suicide recently. Can I live one mo...