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Thanks CrazyLady17. I hope you've found a place to stay.

In simple terms, my story: Age 6-12 molested Age 13 raped several times Age 14-18 buried and forgot the whole thing Age 19 started having flashbacks, nightmares, and tumbledd into depression, self harm, 5 suicide attemps (the last of which nearly worked), and multiple extended stays in the hospital ...

People are killed every day and they want to live. Why why why does He take the lives of people who want to live and not mine when I want nothing more than to die?! At the risk of sounding like a petulant child…it isn’t fair. I am smothered in darkness, and I can’t breath. I watch the lives that swi...

“Lord I am not worthy that you should enter into my house, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed.”

I cannot believe that is true. I feel broken beyond repair, and I think that I am beyond healing. Does that mean I don’t have faith? Then I am truly lost and there is no hope.

Thanks for responding. I am low, very low. yes. thanks again.

I wander, and I drift, and I cannot seem to latch onto anything and nothing seems to penetrate. I need to talk, but I feel like I'm shouting and no one is hearing me. I feel like a shadow or invisible and I feel broken beyond repair. But...to try something new, I am trying this. I have never partici...