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My friend thinks my situation is due to the pressure I put on myself to be perfect all the time. Right now I am sitting locked in my dorm room because I don't want anyone to see me like this. I try so hard to be happy, and sometimes it works, but then I do something, or don't do it, and it all come...

My story starts at a young age. When I was 8 my father started physically abusing me. Beating me till I couldn't move. He seemed to me to find anything any excuse to beat me. His hands where the things I feared the most. When my favorite uncle died the abuse got worse and on most occasions also incl...