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I think my depression speaks to me. I keep hearing sayings ringing in my ears, but when I look around no one is there or no one is talking to me. Its been a while since I've been on this site. I don't know why I came back to here. Talking about it helps a little because hiding it is ripping my brain...

I am a broken man. I walk through life with my head down, blended into the crowd. I've hated myself ever since 1994. It has gotten to the point that I have begun plotting and planing my suicide. Maybe I'm not really depressed. Maybe I'm such a loser and wallow in so much self-pity and regret that I'...