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thank you for sharing. I am not ready for a chat. It sounds like you have walked a few miles in my shoes. I am sorry for that. No one should. But your wisdom is appreciated. I think bottom line is not that I ever really want to die, I just really would rather not live my life the way I feel at that ...

so I tend to write novels when I type, sorry. I hope someone takes the time to read it all, and cares enough. I start seeing a new therapist tomorrow, which is really today. So really in about 11 hours. I can't ever get to sleep at night and that is terribly frustrating. I used to go to sleep with t...

sometimes I can go to a place by myself, like a store, that is ok, I have my own car and can leave if I feel scared. I can also do that with my husband. But I cannot do that with a friend or someone who isn't aware of my condition. I would feel trapped, like afraid of what there reaction might be if...

new here to, but what I can say is you have taken the right first step. I did this very same thing when I found out I had cancer. I found an online support because I couldn't talk to anyone else. Docs all talk medical stuff, and family and friends didn't get it. Stay here and let these people help y...

don't know if this would answer the question, but I always think of it this way. They wouldn't give up if they were healthy. There mind is so ill they aren't thinking like a normal person. They have distorted thoughts. Think of someone who has had to much to drink, they don't think rationally. So wh...

new here, but even when I think oh I think I just smiled, or I think I feel happy, then I think to myself, but its not going to last, the darkness is going to come. It never lasts. You are right, self sabotage, but I cannot help it.

looking for some hope that things can get better. I refuse to go to the hospital again. It really doesn't help. It keeps you from ending your life at the moment but it doesn't fix the problem. Plus they always change all my meds and it messes me up. It upsets the entire family, I get funny looks and...