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Hello Crystal, thank you for your wishes, I hope you too are well.

This is most likely my last post here. I have no place - anywhere it seems.

All who gave me support, thank you.

Bye now

((((((((((((((( Pickle ))))))))))))))))) Bless your heart of gold. Your message is so touching and has made me feel so loved, thank you. I miss and love you very much too and please remember even when I am not around you are in my thoughts. A lovely lady and such a wonderful friend you have been to ...

I have bought a diary for my ramblings to go in so I won't write here as much now. Take care all.

Enigma

((( Warmie, Crystal ))) Things are getting worse with this girl concerning her child. She is now making threats that this isn't going to go away and that she will contact authorities regarding the situation and has sent me messages cursing me. I'm scared for our safety and of what she may do to seek...

(((( Warmie )))) Keep making it won't you, you are loved by many here. Oh my current anti-depressant is supposed to make me sleep but they don't hence the sleeping tablets that I can't take very often were introduced. My appointment with the doctor was long but she was very very nice. No medication ...

(((( Warmie )))) How are you keeping? I have taken sleep tablets the last two nights just to make the thoughts stop and the sleep to come. What a rubbish existence I seem to have right now. I can't take them more than 3 nights without a good break or I risk becoming addicted to them. Ugh. Ah I am ti...

(((( Warmie ))))

That wasn't directed at you at all I am referring to my general experience with people (usually outside of the net). You know I have much love for you, don't doubt it or forget that.

Enigma

((( Crystal ))) Thank you for all your gentle encouragement. It's a big goal and my mood really isn't at it's best but all I can do is try. Health Visitor will be here on Monday (she is nice, I met her a few times and spoke with her before) and my therapist has spoken with my doctor today who I will...

(((( Crystal )))) Thank you for taking the the time to give me encouraging words and kind thoughts. I will try to change my thinking as suggested and yes it is and will be hard. I am calmer today about what happened, I can accept it was an accident, not mine or my baby's fault. Feeling a sense of lo...

((( Warmie ))) Thank you. ((( Crystal ))) It's ok, there is nothing that can be said about it except that it was unpleasant. I don't feel amazing but thank you. Resilient is something professionals often describe me as but I have definitely taken enough now, running out of steam... I don't know what...

(((Crystal))) It's so hard to get rid of, the thoughts are there all the time, daily. There is just no peace during the day or night. I am on medication and have tried 2 different ones with 4 dosage adjustments. I don't know what's wrong with me, the doctors will tell you its severe depression and t...

So I find myself here again and desperate for an outlet of the things I am feeling. It was of course far to good to be true that my life could actually get better... How much more stupid can I get?? The last 4 weeks has seen my slip of the rails and back into the dark pit with murky waters. Here I h...

(((((((((((( Warmie ))))))))))))))

I haven't forgotten you either. I had a strange day, it was overwhelming for various reasons and I spent a lot of time reflecting on myself and my past. I do hope that you are keeping well.

(((( Obay ))))

Thank you

I have updated the original post of my story. Due to the memories that are coming back to me due to therapy I have now added further detail and new things to it.