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lol wasnt sure if anyone would remember me. yes i was battling cancer and its gone for now and hopefully doesnt come back.
my name in the chat room is Sara_alone now because people kept asking about Sara Palin, (not p-a-i-n) so yeah

well i dont know who all comes on here anymore or if anyone remembers me, but i just wanted to say that im doing better than i have been in a very long time. got my first prosthetic about three months ago and its workin pretty good. i met this guy at the hospital who also has a prosthetic leg after ...

meh..kinda the opposite for me... its more like why cant i just look ok period?
i have like no self esteem at all...
i hate myself... hate pictures.. hate everything about me...




R.I.P Pepper.... i miss you...

but thanks anyways...

ugh... i dont even know what got into me when i put that up =/
i hate pictures....

yeah theres one in the gallery crystal

no theres no reason to not believe the drs... i just have a bad feeling.... i dont know why... i know the whole procedure and all.. but somethings just not right...

i start chemo again on friday...i cant handle that again.... i cant... it seems like i should be okay with it... but i have a sense that i cant... but the doctors say my body can.... but i honestly have a feeling i cant.... i dont know what to do... trust my gut or believe in someone who went to col...

didnt cut me.. hit me in the ribs and did something..inappropriate...

went out to get groceries...ran into my abusive ex....he threatened me...and...did something...went to the hospital and all but the police cant find him.. my god why does this kind of stuff always happen to me..what the hell did i do to deserve all of this???? i cant do it anymore...going to end up ...

i dont know why... it just does, yeah my whole body.. this has started lately.. like last week.... i dont know why...but i hate it and cant deal with it..

its like everything hurts... its like physically painful for me to do anything... i just cant handle it much longer..

i think im at my breaking point... im tired and im sick and i just cant handle it all anymore. i just want to give up.. it hurts too bad...i feel like im a lost cause...

just feel like nothings worth it anymore... just gonna end up sittin here for the rest of my life...