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I dont have my mother, or father. My grandma passed away. My brother committed suicide. I have to talk myself down from the ledge often. I've kept it to myself for the most part lately. I'm tired of feeling like I appear to just want attention. What I want is to not feel alone if I mess up like I ha...

I constantly find myself speaking without thinking. I dont consider repercussions or how it makes others feel. I consistently shut down people who know more about something by sounding matter of fact. The longer this goes on the less I think I should talk at all. It crushes my spirits like I just hu...

I got a meat cutters apprentice job recently and may be losing the apprenticeship over having depression. Weird how cyclical these things can be and feel. I'm depressed because I am not doing good for myself and then lose my job because of it. Is this irony or some omnipresence asking me why I am tr...

I've been falling in love with my roommate since my grandma and brothers passing. She has been the only person to genuinely care. She doesn't want a relationship and it hurts. I've never wanted mutual feelings more in my life. In a week or 2 I have to move into my own room(once it is cleaned out). I...

I also have no drive to do anything that would normally interest me. It's a sad day in my life when I start day dreaming about going to work

I'm either down and out, mildly happy yet scared things will go bad, or outright angry. The last week I have either faught suicidal ideation or been angry. Today I happen to be furious with no reasoning at all. I tried going for a jog. I tried sit ups, push ups, going shopping, eating, video games, ...

I live in a house with a Beautiful Newfoundland Pup and another dog I always forget the 2 breeds of. I have a cat and 2 other kitties are here. I take care of them and it helps distract but not always. I plan on streaming myself play video games and guitar, and you tubing both when I get the money f...

I get stuck in these loops of knowing things will get better and thinking I don't deserve them to be better. I use counter thoughts to combat the negativity. I maintain face unless things are truly hitting me hard. I try so hard to smile and trick my brain. The real issue I think is I cant decide w...

useranonymous wrote:Hey. Me again. Hope your feeling ok today x

I could be better honestly, I cut my thumb open the day before I started work and feel like an idiot

I'm really sorry to hear about your family :( is there any way you could meet up with your family you havent met yet? I didn't know if it would be easy for you to do. I'm sure they would love to meet up with you. How much do you know about them? What connection do they have to your close family tha...

See and the thing that has been hardest through alot of this is all my close family passed away this year. The only ones left I've never met so I feel distant and ungrounded by that. My cat is one of the main things that reminds me I can't just give up. It's not quite a child but if I dont feed him ...

I get stuck in these loops of knowing things will get better and thinking I don't deserve them to be better. I use counter thoughts to combat the negativity. I maintain face unless things are truly hitting me hard. I try so hard to smile and trick my brain. The real issue I think is I cant decide wh...

Unsure if I need to but Trigger warning: suicide, sexual abuse, loss of family am 25 and Male. I grew up for the good part of my childhood and teen years with my brother and grandma. My brother taught me how to read, write, and perform math. My grandma was more of a mom than my mom would ever know h...

I'm 25, been diagnosed with Bipolar, Seasonal affect, Dysthymia(low level none treatable depression), and PTSD from childhood traumas. I connect with your story alot especially after my personal outbursts lately. I just want people to WANT to be here for me but it feels like I guilt people without m...