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i try so hard to be happy. but it's like there's an automatic switch that goes off when i do get happy, and it says, "NOPE, you can't be happy!" I am so sad, ALL the time, I don't know what it feels like to be happy anymore. what's the point anymore? i have no motivation to do anything. i ...

today has been utterly miserable. i'm so upset right now that i can't really even describe it. my life is so messed up right now, i feel like all i do pity myself. i don't like myself, i don't like anything about me. i don't think people like me. i don't know how to socialize with people; i feel lik...

Welcome Df, we are all here for you in any way you need! You will find we are a great resource for you. I am a senior in college at the moment, and I'm struggling a lot with making some strong decisions and figuring out who I am in life. I have trouble in social situations and making friends, partia...

Crystal, that's a wonderful suggestion and I will think about doing that. I've done a lot of reflection the last few months over my life and what's effected me the most and what's changed me. And maybe I should put those thoughts down on paper, maybe it'd make more sense to me, and maybe make me fee...

thank you for the kind words ken. i appreciate it, and it does help to know you are there. i am doing a little better today. hopefully it means a good week to come.

so it's almost 3 am and i'm having such a hard time right now that i dont know what to do. nothing helps me anymore. i feel like a zombie, just wandering through life, endless minute by endless minute. i'm not motivated to do anything. and anything that does capture my attention for more than a few ...

Sorry it's taken me a while to get back to you Crystal, just been kind of busy/out of it. But thanks for the suggestions, I definitely try listening to music as much as I can. It really can change your mood, it's amazing what good music can do for you. A little update though. I had a good and bad we...

So school has finally started back. It's a nice distraction in some ways because it keeps me active and I'm not locked up in my room all the time now in self-pity, but I still have moments throughout the day where I just feel so terrible. And it happens in the most random of moments - yesterday, I w...

Thanks Ken, you always know what to say. I am glad I have these forums to come to when I'm down and need a place to vent. I appreciate it. I'm doing better today.

So I spent the week with my grandparents. I love them so much, but it's so hard to be around them sometimes. They are religious, and I know that they would never accept who I am. A few times I had to get up and leave the room cause I just couldn't stand sitting there with them. And I've been sitting...

Thank you for the kind words, Ken. I really do appreciate it. I need them now more than ever, these last few months have been the hardest I've ever been through. I can't help but feel I make things too personal than they should be. My counselor says whereas some people are able to just accept reject...

I feel so out of touch with reality right now. I am hurting so bad, and I feel so sick and nauseous that everything feels surreal. I didn't sleep at all last night. And it's Christmas Eve, and I should be happier. But I can't be. I want to crawl inside a hole and stay there for as long as possible. ...

"Sometimes we are drawn to the light that burns us." That quote is so fitting...I think sometimes that the reason I got so attached was because I knew it would never work out, if that makes sense...I got attached and I knew it wouldn't go somewhere, and it was a "safe" zone. I do...

Thanks again guys, and shatteredhopes you summed it pretty well in your first paragraph, it is indeed incredibly painful. I felt lonely before I met this person, and now that I've met and become attached and realized I'm the only one attached, it's made it ten times worse. My counselor told me I had...

I appreciate all of your comments and kind words, Dandelion, Mich, and Kyle. It really does help. I need to take a step into fixing my problems, and I think if I took a baby step and found a "distraction" (i.e. a friend to hang out with), I might be able to deal easier. I just need to thro...