Depression Understood Forums

I just need help and to tell someone because I can't tell anyone this in my life.

I genuinely hate myself. I dont know how to change who I am. I am disgusted by the person i have become. I try so hard to be kind but i must not do a good job because other people do not like me. I have failed at everything i try and am lazy even though i try to not be. I cannot do anything right an...