Scared but Calm.

[nenkohai2]

I take a variety of meds... for mental health and for my heart. Lately, my pulse has been, it seems, pretty low. Scary low - in the mid 40's.

Pressure seems fine. I see my doc in 2 days. I'm concerned. but, not freaked. There's been a lot of sickness and two of my friends have recently died - both of cancer. Of course, my anxiety and OCD start up thinking about MY health and odds... and all that.

I have to be careful when I stand up. Dizzy. Last thing I want is to pass out!

So, just rambling here.... giving my anxiety an outlet. Thanks for reading if you do.

n

[JonsDragonEyes]

I'm sorry you have to go through something like this. I've read all your posts that you've written. Sometimes I don't know what to say to them but I always read them.

Please keep us updated on how you are doing and feeling.

[nenkohai2]

Thanks, JonsDragonEyes.

Cheers

[JonsDragonEyes]

Call me Star.

How are you doing ? I've been worried about you.

[nenkohai2]

That is very nice of you to say that, Star. There's no need for worry The things I go through.... and their feelings, are temporary, generally. But I do see that the feelings have created "paths of least resistance" in my brain. Meaning, for some reason, it's easy for my mind to take a feeling and pin it to some cause or event that may not be relevant.

I suppose that is part of the OCD I have. I try to "tread lightly" when I'm in a "mood," ya know? I don't want to allow it to entrench.
Not sure if any of that makes sense.

But, to my main point: thank you for your kindness. I hope you are well today.

n.