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Over Easter I watched my father die slowly and in pain in hospital, it took about six weeks. During this time I had to drive my mother to the hospital to visit him every day and at the risk of sounding 'poor me' it was hugely exhausting.

When he was close to death, I looked at my dad and I found myself coming to the conclusion that no God would let this happen and I lost my faith there and then. I also became filled with a feeling of the utter futility of existence. I don't want to lose faith and I know there's untold suffering in the world but where do I begin to start?

I noticed you have made several post, I noticed you stated you are symptom free currently? How long do you typically go without symptoms? Before they return?