love sickness?

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Joekababazae
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love sickness?

Postby Joekababazae » Sat Nov 29, 2014 12:12 pm

I was at work the other day when I started thinking about her. I thought about her eyes, eyes as deep as the ocean. I thought about her hair, black as the night and braided perfectly. I thought about her smile, a smile that can melt any heart, even one as cold as mine. I thought about her kindness and enthusiasm, so genuine and real. I thought about her and a pit formed in my stomach, a pressure was building in my head. I started to wretch and gag, not because I find the young woman I thought about disgusting, but because the state of having feelings for someone makes me physically ill with stress and anxiety. I’ve always been extremely anxious whenever I have feelings for someone, it terrifies me like nothing else and so for the last few years I’ve avoided having these feelings for anyone in hopes of not breaking down completely. But recently I have not been able to stop thinking about this young woman, someone I know well but rarely see, and I do not enjoy having these feelings. I get worked up to the point of having horrible thoughts about myself and I’ve known for the past few years that thoughts of romance or “crushes” are major triggers for having an explosive anxiety attack, so I avoid these feelings like the plague. I try not to think about her or convince myself that I do not have feelings for her but I don’t think my efforts are effective. I don’t think I’ll break down like I have in the past but I honestly don’t know what to do. I’d like to have a relationship one day but I’m just too broken to be with anyone…

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Postby JonsDragonEyes » Thu Jan 08, 2015 1:52 pm

Hi there Joekababazae it's nice to meet you.

You sure sound like you have the heart of a big romantic and a wonderful poet at that. Someone that feels love the way you do should never end up alone. I hope with all my heart you get to be with this girl someday.

My fingers are crossed for you.
"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place, and I don't care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that! -- Rocky Balboa

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Postby SkaterDrew » Fri Jan 09, 2015 9:54 pm

Why don't you go with her and invite her for a dinner or something like that? We might not know what will come next. You would feel better if you try to express your feelings. Anyone deserves to be with someone and be happy.

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Postby 100footpole » Wed Jan 14, 2015 1:47 pm

What's the worst that could happen?

I thought about her and a pit formed in my stomach, a pressure was building in my head. I started to wretch and gag, not because I find the young woman I thought about disgusting, but because the state of having feelings for someone makes me physically ill with stress and anxiety.


Oh .... Stan Marsh is that you?

ANXIETY STINKS.


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