partners away, cannot sleep, a few things off my chest

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heavyheart38
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partners away, cannot sleep, a few things off my chest

Postby heavyheart38 » Sun Jan 12, 2014 5:22 am

Lying here, tapping on this phone
in this bed all alone.
cannot sleep i am too wired.
after writing the story that i got fired.
a deep seated hate, oh the dread
is now coming into my head

i wish so many things were different
mostly how ive been treated all my life
mocked and beaten, insulted a lot
it hasnt stopped with my soon to be wife

and as i lay here, butt naked and bare
all i wish is that she were here.
even though she abuses me mentally
i love her totally.

l wish she loves me as much as i love her.
i hope she loves me as much as i love her.
oh to know she loves me as much as i love her.
but seriously honestly truthfully
i really doubt that.......


sorry me trying to vent.

CrazyLady17

Postby CrazyLady17 » Sun Jan 12, 2014 5:25 am

Wow that brought a tear to my eye...
You shouldn't be abused mentally or abused at all, it's not what a partner should do, if she really loves you see wouldn't be hurting you mentally.

I hope you are okay soon.

(((Hugs)))

heavyheart38
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Postby heavyheart38 » Sun Jan 12, 2014 5:31 am

Lately im never ok.. All i seem to do is work for nothing. My nightly mind mess, twists and contorts my life, no im never ok. At least its not silent treatment

CrazyLady17

Postby CrazyLady17 » Sun Jan 12, 2014 5:33 am

You need to talk to her about how your feeling....
Your NOT helping yourself by drowning your sorrows in depression love. We can not advise you, YOUR the person who can change things or the better.

Good luck with that.

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Postby heavyheart38 » Mon Jan 13, 2014 6:12 am

Night 2 of my loves absence, it's just after midnight, I'm feeling drowsy, tried music, bit of Bob Seger, lyrics sometimes trigger a sadness inside me, got a little pang, I want more to completely trigger me off!!! I want to feel the waves again.....and the tears, need sleep......

CrazyLady17

Postby CrazyLady17 » Mon Jan 13, 2014 6:13 am

Cry your eyes and try and relax.
Okay?
Remember what I told you.

YOU have to listen and take our advise and it'll be okay. Promise.

Good luck.

heavyheart38
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Postby heavyheart38 » Tue Jan 21, 2014 1:56 am

Wow what a difference a few days makes. I went out and stayed for a couple of nights with my love and we had a serious heart to heart. A huge burden has been lifted, its feels great to be in a positive happy mood for once.

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Postby Frame » Tue Jan 21, 2014 6:11 am

I guess I can assume you two came to some understanding.
Talking to each other is so important.

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Postby heavyheart38 » Tue Jan 26, 2016 3:41 am

Thread dredge! It's that time again where my love goes away with the girls and leaves me with me and my thoughts. Last two days were hell but got through it. Just lonely I guess. I feel like a bit of a "softie" and needy but when they aren't here I get extremely agitated, anxious, but why? Every male I know loves it when their partners are away! I hate it. Seems silly but at nearly 40 years old I feel like a child when their gone. Anyone else get like this?

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Postby 100footpole » Wed Jan 27, 2016 1:19 pm

I like to think of the feeling you describe as being "homesick".

Let your partner know all the things you missed about her while she was gone.

Work has shown me the "opposite" way to do this: I hate it when people tell me all the things they had to do because I wasn't there to do them. I love it when people say "How do you do that so quickly? Having you gone showed me all you add here."

The thing I love most about my partner is how after 28+ years we complete each other. When she needs to be away I look at these moments as great reminders of what great friends we are.

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Postby viuuiuvy » Wed Jun 15, 2016 4:09 pm

Frame wrote:I guess I can assume you two came to some understanding.
Talking to each other is so important.


If there is no communication in a relationship then things won't work out.

Although from experience, sometimes non-verbal communication is more important.


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