Do I not matter to people?

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CrazyLady17

Do I not matter to people?

Postby CrazyLady17 » Thu Dec 12, 2013 4:47 am

Do I seriously not matter to anyone anymore? I am seriously invisible? I am seriously like the only person everyone and god hates in this world?
Why am I the one suffering? Why am I the one who is being bullied? Why am I the one who is being pushed aside by the world?
Why do I feel like the whole world is against me?

Why does depression do strange things to you're brain?

CrazyLady17

Postby CrazyLady17 » Thu Dec 12, 2013 9:16 am

Today has proven that I do not matter to anyone what so ever.... Do I?.... My parents don't seem to care- and neither do my friends! I actually do feel so invisble and so unwanted it's such a depressing feeling to have :(

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Postby Frame » Thu Dec 12, 2013 9:31 am

There are people watching Lady; spirits of friends and family; God.
They may not be talking (I often feel like God has nothing to say to me), but they are watching. They are listening.

Make them proud.

CrazyLady17

Postby CrazyLady17 » Thu Dec 12, 2013 9:35 am

But are there really people watching and listening though? I mean most of the time I feel like I'm talking to myself or talking to a brick wall. My friends are turning against me and my parents well... They kicked me out when I needed them most.
I have no-one and it sucks.

I hope you are right though Frame.

CrazyLady17

Postby CrazyLady17 » Thu Dec 12, 2013 12:42 pm

I can now certainly say I do not matter to anybody, oh wow!! This is such a great feeling to have..... NOT!!

:( :( :cry:

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Postby Frame » Thu Dec 12, 2013 1:37 pm

I'm sorry; I missed something. Tell me again why you do not matter to anybody. Cause if that's the way I feel [NOT!!], I'm spending quite a bit of time on something (someone) that doesn't matter to me. And how can you tell me how I feel, without me telling you?

This is what I'm talking about when I say I want to see more respect for yourself and for others. We both know there are many people that care about you.

There is a big difference between: "I feel like I don't matter..." and "I can now certainly say I do not matter to anybody...".

I'd like to see you begin to make the distinction when you write. These feelings your having begin (IMHO) with twisted thinking and memories. (I apologize if that sounds disrespectful; I know these memories are real.) Writing clearly is going to help you think clearly. And as you think more clearly you are going to find some of these terrible feeling will ease. It won't erase them, but it will make them better. It will make me feel better. It will help people reading this feel better; more apt to respond.

Write the way you feel by all means. That is therapy and it's good. But don't write about feelings, especially other peoples feelings, as if they are fact. It leads down the wrong path and puts people on the defensive. Feelings aren't facts and they change much much faster.

Please.

And get some rest. You have another important day tomorrow.

BTW, Do you like pie? What kinds?

CrazyLady17

Postby CrazyLady17 » Thu Dec 12, 2013 1:56 pm

Not on about you? And not on about anyone on here? I'm sorry; I should of made myself much more clearer and I'm so sorry for that honestly! What I meant was that I can now certainly say that none of my family and most of my "so called friends" think I do not matter to them anymore! When I need them the most right now... Am I right? Of course I am!'

Wow- back to being "harsh" Frame. Wow!! :(
Pretty upset now, but hey! I'm emotional anyways now'a days :/
It's okay.
I don't know okay?

I'm sorry? :(

Yes okay. I do write clearly thanks? I don't know what more you wants to do? I am trying my damn hardest here!! I'm working my backside off here trying to impress you and everyone else! And to try and beat this depression!!

I am resting? I am in bed crying my eyes out and blocking everyone out :( :(

Yes I like pie aha ;)
Cherry pie.
Apple pie.
Do you?

CrazyLady17

Postby CrazyLady17 » Thu Dec 12, 2013 3:48 pm

I wish I mattered to my parents and I wish they would care about me more. I wonder why I was even born sometimes.
I just wish my parents would come help me out of this rut I've got myself in, but no instead I'm trying to fight this depression all on my own.
I seem to have nobody lately and it sucks.

My parents have turned away from me and kicked me out of the house.
Most of my "friends" have turned away from me and are now taking the mock out of me for being so depressed.
I just want to feel wanted, loved and want to know I matter to them, but that'll take a miracle.


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