StorytellingHeals:May 20, 2013 wrote:i've been wresting and wrangling because deep down i know that life is beautiful and vibrant and I should have a reason for living. i know my thoughts are my battle ground..and i have a lot to live for but it's getting a little hard today because i'm falling into very old habits of comparing and adding troubles upon each other and escaping into useless habits and routines that don't give me any real relief. my childhood was plagued with grieving and loss, my adolescence with escapism and a desire for health.
What are these good habits; these bad habits?
I Know, I know. They exist I know.
Work too much, work too little; think too much, think too little;
Run, don't run; don't give up, give up and let God;
Be positive, be realistic; look at your life with truth and honesty,
but don't let yourself be overwhelmed;
don't stare at the Sun, but look into the light...
It's Monday again. If only it were raining. Why can't it be raining?
It must be raining somewhere in the world. I guess that will have to do.
"...life is beautiful and vibrant and I should have a reason for living."
I'd like to add that living life is harder than I can bare; but I know that can't be true. Because, here I still am.
Fight the good fight, but get along;
I don't know what it means to fight. I have been vanquished. I only know what it means to be obstinate. To refuse to sit down or be pushed around.
But life is beautiful. Life is vibrant. I have the evidence.
Have they shut down the government again today.
Maybe I'll ride my bike to work.