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I'm not sure what to type, so I'll just express my current situation.

I can't feel anything, I can't remember when i did.
I experience no pain, only the bone chilling cold in this endless sea.
I pretend I'm a bastion, my friends dump their problems on me.
I feel so hollow and i try to fill myself with knowledge. It never works.
I try to feel things. I feel only the faintest touch.

I don't know what is wrong with me, my life from an outside perspective is alright. I'm so cold...

If anyone can help me, to feel or to help fill my mind, please do.

((((( Numbing Ocean ))))))))

I can really relate to you. I was told if I ignore the bad feelings I ignore the good ones. You can't pick and choose which to ignore. It's a package deal. Once you have started to acknowledge the painfull one only then will you feel the good ones. It's hard to deal with pain, but slowly doing this will help you in the end. I also let everyone tell me their problems and try and help. In turn, it drains me emotionally leaving nothing for myself. Remember you can't give what you don't have. I hope this helps a little. I just want to say, I understand it's a hard road... but a road you must take.

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