Need help with treatment
Posted: Thu Mar 16, 2017 5:20 pm
Hello again all! I'm back after a long absence.
after at least 6 years of trying to not accept my mental state and at least another 4 trying desperately to resolve my issues my self I have finally given in a have booked a doctors appointment to seek help for what ever it is I have wrong with me. I did make some progress on my own but overall I have failed. I still find my self overwhelmed at times an unable to defeat what seems like my band mind with my good one. Its almost like being a different person at times.
What I need is an idea of what to expect from treatment I will get from the NHS in UK.
From what I have read online and heard from the two friends I know who have gone down the route before me (one wouldn't tell me much the other only did one session of CBT and thought it was useless) I am expecting to be referred to a specialist who will then either treat me directly or again refer me to someone else. I expect I will have to do a certain number of CBT sessions before being offered medication.
I also expect the doctor will take into consideration my symptoms when placing me in the waiting list and before prescribing any treatment what so ever.
Bellow I have outlined my symptoms. I will take note of these to give to my doctor to make things easier.
Symptoms
• Depression in distinct waves lasting from a few days to a few weeks. They can be provoked by an argument or being ignored. Generally: failure, loneliness and humiliation. It’s a bit like being a different person, two very different perceptions and ways of thinking. I do not experience periods of mania like a manic-depressive I only revert to a more normal and positive way of thinking. In these periods, I often make good progress in the things I want to achieve but they are only brief periods of a few weeks which often makes my efforts in vein by the time the next wave hits.
• Always found it very difficult to sleep unless very distracted or extremely tired.
• Violent and distressing dreams and thoughts. I have never acted on any of my violent thoughts, nor do I hear voices. I usually get them a few hours or days after someone wrongs me and I have started thinking about it.
• Always found it very hard to socialise. Other people seem to have an instinct I don’t. Confidence not an issue anymore but to be social I have to put on a front which can be very draining. I have a few friends but no close or best friends. I have lacked a best friend/s since the age of about 10-11. I think a lot of people I know from school still and always will see me as a weird loser and they treat me as such. When I have met new people, who don’t know my past they are much warmer to me.
• Anger. I don’t feel like I am angry anymore but I do have a very short and unpredictable temper. It never goes been harsh words and I feel this works against me as most people would respect me at least out of fear if I just hit people who pissed me off without warning and with total disregard to my wellbeing. I was angry a lot more of the time in my teenage years.
• Aches and pains
• Addison’s disease. I was diagnosed with Addison’s disease about 4 years ago. I think it could be the cause or maybe a result of my depression as both cause stress and are brought on due to stress. It’s a bit like which came first the chicken or the egg. As a result I have to take tablet for the rest of my life. See below.
• Lowering the dosage of my hydrocortisone, after cold for example, (I have to up my dosage in times of particular stress such as illness) will always cause a wave of depression a day or two after the lowered does.
• I have always felt my best when I take my hydrocortisone at exactly the same time but I am not sure if slight deviations affect my mood
• Alcohol not surprisingly will cause a bout of depression if I find myself alone at the end of the night as I often do. I’m fine when still with people though.
• I think things over and play out situations in my mind a lot when I am alone especially if someone has said something that upsets me or if someone ignores me.
Suspected conditions
• Addison’s disease is definitely playing a part
• A form or multiple forms of anxiety. The us version fits me where as the uk one doesn’t
• A form of depression or manic depression
I do have a list of suspected causes as well but this post is already pretty long.
I hope some of you will/have taken the time to read and I would greatly appreciate any help!
after at least 6 years of trying to not accept my mental state and at least another 4 trying desperately to resolve my issues my self I have finally given in a have booked a doctors appointment to seek help for what ever it is I have wrong with me. I did make some progress on my own but overall I have failed. I still find my self overwhelmed at times an unable to defeat what seems like my band mind with my good one. Its almost like being a different person at times.
What I need is an idea of what to expect from treatment I will get from the NHS in UK.
From what I have read online and heard from the two friends I know who have gone down the route before me (one wouldn't tell me much the other only did one session of CBT and thought it was useless) I am expecting to be referred to a specialist who will then either treat me directly or again refer me to someone else. I expect I will have to do a certain number of CBT sessions before being offered medication.
I also expect the doctor will take into consideration my symptoms when placing me in the waiting list and before prescribing any treatment what so ever.
Bellow I have outlined my symptoms. I will take note of these to give to my doctor to make things easier.
Symptoms
• Depression in distinct waves lasting from a few days to a few weeks. They can be provoked by an argument or being ignored. Generally: failure, loneliness and humiliation. It’s a bit like being a different person, two very different perceptions and ways of thinking. I do not experience periods of mania like a manic-depressive I only revert to a more normal and positive way of thinking. In these periods, I often make good progress in the things I want to achieve but they are only brief periods of a few weeks which often makes my efforts in vein by the time the next wave hits.
• Always found it very difficult to sleep unless very distracted or extremely tired.
• Violent and distressing dreams and thoughts. I have never acted on any of my violent thoughts, nor do I hear voices. I usually get them a few hours or days after someone wrongs me and I have started thinking about it.
• Always found it very hard to socialise. Other people seem to have an instinct I don’t. Confidence not an issue anymore but to be social I have to put on a front which can be very draining. I have a few friends but no close or best friends. I have lacked a best friend/s since the age of about 10-11. I think a lot of people I know from school still and always will see me as a weird loser and they treat me as such. When I have met new people, who don’t know my past they are much warmer to me.
• Anger. I don’t feel like I am angry anymore but I do have a very short and unpredictable temper. It never goes been harsh words and I feel this works against me as most people would respect me at least out of fear if I just hit people who pissed me off without warning and with total disregard to my wellbeing. I was angry a lot more of the time in my teenage years.
• Aches and pains
• Addison’s disease. I was diagnosed with Addison’s disease about 4 years ago. I think it could be the cause or maybe a result of my depression as both cause stress and are brought on due to stress. It’s a bit like which came first the chicken or the egg. As a result I have to take tablet for the rest of my life. See below.
• Lowering the dosage of my hydrocortisone, after cold for example, (I have to up my dosage in times of particular stress such as illness) will always cause a wave of depression a day or two after the lowered does.
• I have always felt my best when I take my hydrocortisone at exactly the same time but I am not sure if slight deviations affect my mood
• Alcohol not surprisingly will cause a bout of depression if I find myself alone at the end of the night as I often do. I’m fine when still with people though.
• I think things over and play out situations in my mind a lot when I am alone especially if someone has said something that upsets me or if someone ignores me.
Suspected conditions
• Addison’s disease is definitely playing a part
• A form or multiple forms of anxiety. The us version fits me where as the uk one doesn’t
• A form of depression or manic depression
I do have a list of suspected causes as well but this post is already pretty long.
I hope some of you will/have taken the time to read and I would greatly appreciate any help!