Depressed, anxious, lacking true understanding of myself
Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2007 10:54 pm
Hey, I am a 18 year old guy and for the last few years I have become extremely distressed and anxious about my appearance. I gaze at myself in the mirror on a daily basis, wondering how anyone could be born so ugly. I feel like I stand out like a sore thumb, that people are staring at my ugliness from every angle. Some people close to me say that I am not ugly but I feel that they are only saying this not to make me feel bad. I stare at the mirror for minutes on end in a kind of trance which I hope will end with me coming to assurance that I am not ugly. But that never happens of course. To get though daily life I continuously say to myself “I am not ugly, I am not ugly”, just to try and make the best out of my life. But by saying this I think it shows I am in a state of denial, it shows that I am actually ugly but I am trying to sweep the fact under the carpet. Is this true? , am I ugly or am I actually decent looking? Please assist me, I am trying to finally gain a true and honest understanding of myself. True Understanding of my physical appearance is something I have never had in my life and finding the truth, whether it be good or bad, is central to me. Thanks.
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Pics:
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... G_0027.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... ggh061.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... ggh058.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... rfh013.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... ggh052.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... ggh048.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... ggh050.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... ggh030.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... ggh005.jpg
http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd12 ... fggh05.jpg