What’s in Your Head?
Posted: Mon Sep 10, 2018 3:20 am
Hello All,
Sharing my story is something that is long over do. Finding this website and creating this post has made me the happiest I’ve been in years. I haven’t seen a psychiatrist in a couple years, I never found one that understood me, if that is even possible. My life was complicated with “mental fogginess”, about 11 years ago and my life has never been the same since. I’ve lived the past 11 years in a constant mental fog that makes me feel detached from reality. I was never truelly happy again, a certain level of happiness became unobtainable. However, I was able to overcome the depression later on down the line by accepting the mental fogginess. I was able to latch on to my intelligence as something that made me happy. The mental fogginess was initially explained as concussion symptoms, I saw neurologists and concussion specialists for years. I was then told by a concussion specialist it was anxiety, which turned out not to be the case. Long story short, I have brain damage from concussions and on top of that I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis a little over a year ago. I’ve been able to cope with my problems up until 4 years ago. 4 years ago I had a huge deminish in my intelligence over night, I’m not nearly as smart as I once was. And that hurts me so bad I can’t stand it, I’ve never been able to recover for one day in the past 4 years. I can’t stop thinking about how I let my girlfriend down and how much better my life would be right now if my brain was working the same as it was 4 years ago. I found this forum at 3 am, so I can’t go into great detail, I have to go to sleep and I really want to accomplish a post tonight. That is the very very brief sum up of my life right now. I just wanted to get that off my chest, and this looked like a great place to start. Any questions/comments/concerns are more than welcome.
Thank you
Sharing my story is something that is long over do. Finding this website and creating this post has made me the happiest I’ve been in years. I haven’t seen a psychiatrist in a couple years, I never found one that understood me, if that is even possible. My life was complicated with “mental fogginess”, about 11 years ago and my life has never been the same since. I’ve lived the past 11 years in a constant mental fog that makes me feel detached from reality. I was never truelly happy again, a certain level of happiness became unobtainable. However, I was able to overcome the depression later on down the line by accepting the mental fogginess. I was able to latch on to my intelligence as something that made me happy. The mental fogginess was initially explained as concussion symptoms, I saw neurologists and concussion specialists for years. I was then told by a concussion specialist it was anxiety, which turned out not to be the case. Long story short, I have brain damage from concussions and on top of that I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis a little over a year ago. I’ve been able to cope with my problems up until 4 years ago. 4 years ago I had a huge deminish in my intelligence over night, I’m not nearly as smart as I once was. And that hurts me so bad I can’t stand it, I’ve never been able to recover for one day in the past 4 years. I can’t stop thinking about how I let my girlfriend down and how much better my life would be right now if my brain was working the same as it was 4 years ago. I found this forum at 3 am, so I can’t go into great detail, I have to go to sleep and I really want to accomplish a post tonight. That is the very very brief sum up of my life right now. I just wanted to get that off my chest, and this looked like a great place to start. Any questions/comments/concerns are more than welcome.
Thank you