At this time, I am new.
Posted: Thu Nov 02, 2017 3:11 am
Hello, I am new here.
I think I've been struggling for a long while now. Moved to a new place about five years ago to be closer to my son. Left my entire family back home. I met some people, started to get things under control. Things were okay.
but years later.. I barely get to see my son, my best friend hates me, I barely talk to anyone, and if I'm not working I'm just laying in bed. I can't handle my thoughts, I can't handle a lot of what comes my way.
I don't want to die, I'm just so tired of being alive. Things can be going so well, but that is usually my indication that things are about to go south.
The closest relationship I've had in YEARS has been my (now ex) best friend. I watched her son (who called me dad) all the time and we spent pretty much all of our time together. Now due to a misunderstanding she is taking any opportunity to destroy me. All the things she loved and praised me on she now dogs and hates. Every day I'm receiving messages, and I don't know what to do. I know I'll deal with it because I've loved this person for so long. I do not want to let her go.
After moving half way across the world my son's mother takes our son and moves even further. I barely see him and it is killing me. She also made the note to let me know that he doesn't refer to me as "Dad" anymore.
Everything else? I'm sure it is a common issue to not know what one is doing in life, but I honestly have no clue. I feel like I've given up but I also know I haven't. I am beyond confused. I don't know what to do. I fee like I'm "done" but I know I'm not. There's so much left for me to do. So much life.
I just don't have to motivation for it.
I think I've been struggling for a long while now. Moved to a new place about five years ago to be closer to my son. Left my entire family back home. I met some people, started to get things under control. Things were okay.
but years later.. I barely get to see my son, my best friend hates me, I barely talk to anyone, and if I'm not working I'm just laying in bed. I can't handle my thoughts, I can't handle a lot of what comes my way.
I don't want to die, I'm just so tired of being alive. Things can be going so well, but that is usually my indication that things are about to go south.
The closest relationship I've had in YEARS has been my (now ex) best friend. I watched her son (who called me dad) all the time and we spent pretty much all of our time together. Now due to a misunderstanding she is taking any opportunity to destroy me. All the things she loved and praised me on she now dogs and hates. Every day I'm receiving messages, and I don't know what to do. I know I'll deal with it because I've loved this person for so long. I do not want to let her go.
After moving half way across the world my son's mother takes our son and moves even further. I barely see him and it is killing me. She also made the note to let me know that he doesn't refer to me as "Dad" anymore.
Everything else? I'm sure it is a common issue to not know what one is doing in life, but I honestly have no clue. I feel like I've given up but I also know I haven't. I am beyond confused. I don't know what to do. I fee like I'm "done" but I know I'm not. There's so much left for me to do. So much life.
I just don't have to motivation for it.